Be Yourself....

Lately, I've been thinking. Why am I so stressed out & all emotional. I think its because of problems that keep piling up one after another. I try so hard to hate myself that I forgot how much I used to love myself. You know what, from this day forth, I'll just be me. Simple, plain & easy. I don't need QUOTES to express my feelings, I did just fine without them before and I'll be damn fine without em. Time to live up, let the bad things go and just go back to how things were. I've got more than anyone should like the Ashlee Simpson song goes. I have my friends, my family, my best-est by my side, what more could you ask for Zubir-O? I think that's more than enough. I'm contented with my life. Others won't get to experience what I have now, some might even kill to have a simple life I guess? (=

This goes without saying that my healing is close to complete. Sticks and stones may break my bones, girls can break my heart but never break my spirit. Like I said many times in the past, life's too short to do anything twice. These days, I'm tired of fighting, I hate being violent, I just wanna be care free. Never change for someone who doesn't appreciate you. Yeah their beautiful creatures, but their the most beautiful monsters when you don't need them to be. If god has destined us to be with someone, then wait for them, if we're destined to be alone, accept our fate wholeheartedly. Because we'll be at loss if we keep forcing ourselves to love someone who just took us for a ride of uncertainty.

Today's my IPPT retest. I've trained more since the last one. I wanna pass this one so bad. One mere second ruined my freedom the past few weeks. So today, Insya'allah, I can pass. I have more confidence today. Just need to pass this & I'll be fine. No more feeling shitty at work. I've lost appetite to eat, maybe cause my mindset is to pass. I don't know lah ah...

Anyways, I'm signing off. I wanna prep for my IPPT & work later in the evening. Please take care of yourselves. Be happy no matter what smile because when no one is by your side, Allah is. Look up in the skies & I will see you guys on the flip side. Chao!


Smiles From Zubir-O

Should Love Be Blamed?

One thing I hate about being in love is when you fall out of it, you have to go through months of torment and feeling sorry & shitty for no reason. I mean people keep saying its ok blah3.. but what they don't understand is that its easy for them to say but hard for us to do. Its really annoying when people say its ok its ok, try coming into my shoes, then we'll talk. How do girls move on so easily? I've heard of the age old stuff like, oh we move on but our hearts are still aching, hello wake up call women, we men have FEELINGS too!


Us guys always get blamed for this & that... All the bad things goes to us, but never you girls. Maybe its true, guys are bad but at least our bad side shows... We don't go behind each other and bitch non stop about how miserable it was to be with a girl.


Months ago, I believed in love. I even wrote a love letter for someone. I still keep it, but I feel like burning it so badly. But every time I'm close doing it, I think of and I go.. Damn, I don't wanna do it because I sincerely wrote it with feelings. I don't know lah! Hahahaha... Mabybe I'm not cut out for love.


I've been going for centralised training to better my physic and pass my 2.4KM. Atleast I'm more positive about that. Allah, please let me pass that. Jeez I hate wasting my time....

I stepped on emo shit!
Zubir-O