Many Apologies.

I'm sorry I haven't been posting for a long time. Been down with a bad sickness lately. I'm still recovering. Throughout my recovery alot of things have been happening, to my health and to the people around me. Break ups. That's the hot topic these days. Where has sincerity & LOVE gone to when a relationship comes to mind? Haiz. One will never be enough for anyone. Anyways, this past Saturday, my dearest buddy & I went to take pictures like mad. Scroll down for them pictures. Enjoy!

Well that's pretty much lah. Lazy to post more hahaha. When I have something cool to blog about I'll get post it up. My mojo is still down. So here I go. Take care everyone, be at the pink of health & just be safe everyone wherever you are. Remember, no friends should ever be alone when their in need of a shoulder to lean on, to cry on. I'll see you guys on the flip side. Take care!


Au Revoir
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Be Yourself....

Lately, I've been thinking. Why am I so stressed out & all emotional. I think its because of problems that keep piling up one after another. I try so hard to hate myself that I forgot how much I used to love myself. You know what, from this day forth, I'll just be me. Simple, plain & easy. I don't need QUOTES to express my feelings, I did just fine without them before and I'll be damn fine without em. Time to live up, let the bad things go and just go back to how things were. I've got more than anyone should like the Ashlee Simpson song goes. I have my friends, my family, my best-est by my side, what more could you ask for Zubir-O? I think that's more than enough. I'm contented with my life. Others won't get to experience what I have now, some might even kill to have a simple life I guess? (=

This goes without saying that my healing is close to complete. Sticks and stones may break my bones, girls can break my heart but never break my spirit. Like I said many times in the past, life's too short to do anything twice. These days, I'm tired of fighting, I hate being violent, I just wanna be care free. Never change for someone who doesn't appreciate you. Yeah their beautiful creatures, but their the most beautiful monsters when you don't need them to be. If god has destined us to be with someone, then wait for them, if we're destined to be alone, accept our fate wholeheartedly. Because we'll be at loss if we keep forcing ourselves to love someone who just took us for a ride of uncertainty.

Today's my IPPT retest. I've trained more since the last one. I wanna pass this one so bad. One mere second ruined my freedom the past few weeks. So today, Insya'allah, I can pass. I have more confidence today. Just need to pass this & I'll be fine. No more feeling shitty at work. I've lost appetite to eat, maybe cause my mindset is to pass. I don't know lah ah...

Anyways, I'm signing off. I wanna prep for my IPPT & work later in the evening. Please take care of yourselves. Be happy no matter what smile because when no one is by your side, Allah is. Look up in the skies & I will see you guys on the flip side. Chao!


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Should Love Be Blamed?

One thing I hate about being in love is when you fall out of it, you have to go through months of torment and feeling sorry & shitty for no reason. I mean people keep saying its ok blah3.. but what they don't understand is that its easy for them to say but hard for us to do. Its really annoying when people say its ok its ok, try coming into my shoes, then we'll talk. How do girls move on so easily? I've heard of the age old stuff like, oh we move on but our hearts are still aching, hello wake up call women, we men have FEELINGS too!


Us guys always get blamed for this & that... All the bad things goes to us, but never you girls. Maybe its true, guys are bad but at least our bad side shows... We don't go behind each other and bitch non stop about how miserable it was to be with a girl.


Months ago, I believed in love. I even wrote a love letter for someone. I still keep it, but I feel like burning it so badly. But every time I'm close doing it, I think of and I go.. Damn, I don't wanna do it because I sincerely wrote it with feelings. I don't know lah! Hahahaha... Mabybe I'm not cut out for love.


I've been going for centralised training to better my physic and pass my 2.4KM. Atleast I'm more positive about that. Allah, please let me pass that. Jeez I hate wasting my time....

I stepped on emo shit!
Zubir-O

Failure Is The Mother To All Success... Yeah Right...

I knew it. I knew I was gonna fail. 1 second was all it took to turn my mood all low. I feel shitty, I don't feel like talking. I'm weak. So here's to me, I'm not doing things right. 2.4 was something I was strong in. Damn damn damn! I need to think things through. I don't think I'm ok. Help me god for I know I've sinned, this is my punishment, I accept it. But how long? What happened to the old Zubir-O? Its anybody's guess..


Not Myself Tonight...
Zubir

I Need Inspiration, I Need To Pray...

IPPT, those four initials I hate hearing. Because that's when I know I have to go all out with my physical fitness to achieve something, I don't wanna be going for centralised training again. I've had my fair share in my training days. Dear Allah, I know I come to when I need something but forget you when I don't need anything. I've sinned gratefully. Please forgive me, I feel so weak.

I'm seriously not myself lately. I show that I'm happy, but in reality, I'm just covering things up with laughter & fake smiles. But there are sincerity in most of the joys & laughter I've shown. I'm over you, but I keep thinking about us again & again. This isn't fair. This is not fair at all. I need a miracle. For all the good I've done I ask for one thing over again. Happiness. I just need a peace of mind. Please... That's all I need. Allah, Please let all my family & friends be happy, I'm willing to sacrifice anything for em. I shouldn't be selfish with wanting anything for my own needs. Let those around me be happy and have a fruitful life. Let them have love, joy & laughter. Please Allah, I'm willing to sacrifice my happiness for them. Let me pay for my sins. I've always known how to not hate people, I don't like to hate. For those who have hurt me, let them find peace and tranquility in themselves. I don't want anymore feuds between friends. My mind is not peace. Hopefully one day, I'll be able to say "hey, I'm ok" sincerely.... If anyone needs help, I'm willing to be there for you. Promise

To you, please be a good girl, be safe, I don't know what's wrong with me, but I want you to be happy. You deserve happiness. I'm close to forgetting you totally. I just need more recovery time. I'll continue being me. I need to change my ways. I just need time. That's all...

Whatever happens, I'll always be there for you... I cry thinking if things are gonna be ok. God, please let things be ok from now on.
Zubir-O

Phuket, Thailand

Last week, I went to Phuket Thailand for a 4 days 3 nights holiday with 3 of my buddies. It was also the first time I was in a flight. First flight experience was awesome! haaaa! We were on a Tiger-airways flight and the air stewards & stewardess were all friendly & super nice. As usual I have to whip out my camera and take pictures hahaha... So as the pictures roll down, I'll tell you stories... (Scroll down!)

Zai & I queuing up for our flight tickets and from afar Sly snap a good shot of us hahaha...

Sly & me bored of waiting at the entry to the plane. Gate 4 was such a bore trust me...
And so we took flight, high above the clouds & beautiful blue sky..
Sawadee-Kaa Phuket Thailand, We're Here!!!!We wasted no time, so it was recce time! We walked along this place called Bangla Street, yes you read right, Bangla Street hahaha.... Literally... The night lights sure made our eyes glittery. Off for our first dinner in Thailand... Indian food!This vintage phone booth caught my eye the moment we got off the transport. haha..The following day, we got ready for our water activities which we were all psyched about. Fresh faces out of bed! LOL... Especially mine... Da
This is the speedboat that took us from Patong Area to the Phi Phi Islands which Leonardo DiCaprio acted in the movie "The Beach".
Snorkeling was one of the highlights of that day. The only snorkeling I did in the past was in the swimming pool. I never thought that one day I'd be able to actually do it hahah.. The clear blue water, the colourful fishes, the calm coral reef.. It was so relaxing. I got stung by small jellyfishes, TWICE! hahaha... But its all good...
Via feeding the naughty monkeys that kept coming back for Bananas... Now I know why monkeys are known to be cheeky! hahaha Normal lah, go anywhere, making friends with people is a must when it comes to us, even if it means making friends in another country... KIMCHEE! Btw, they're Koreans.These BBQ gigantic corns were in Khai Island... I tell you I've not tasted anything like this before. Juicy, fresh & cheap! LOL1You would think we'd be tired & exhausted after a full day event like that? No, the night just began.... We went swimming at our resort's pool. No one but us controlling that pool. Felt so care free & just great. This picture below shows how boys will always be boys Hehe..All fun with no food is a No-No. Food in Phuket were amazingly nice. No complains just splendid.

If you come to Thailand & you don't taste the authentic taste of Tom Yum, then its not worth coming hehe... I tell you this Tom Yum Goong is tremendous. The owner made friends with us. I feel like BBQ all of a sudden.... (=
Activities continued the later days, we went Glow in the Dark bowling which was a first for all of us infact. Something different indeed. Everything was dark, the music played was great. Dancing & bowling the evening away....Then we went simulating shooting. Don't worry the gun I'm holding isn't real. Its a laser guy, basically a toy! Cool stuff actually. You just shoot the laser pointer at the Game screens they have, and you score points. The winner gets their face printed out and exhibited in their mini gallery. Cool...Night life in Phuket is an all system go kinda thing. Thais here I believe are nocturnal. There were things you would never see in Singapore. I'm glad I'm in Singapore. Much more peaceful. All good things have to come to an end, our final shot before flying back to our stomping grounds. A group photo with what people might call "corny" I say whatever kinda tees hahaha.. Phuket was truly fun, it was filled with Sun, sand & beach. Good friends, great activities. Felt like not going back for a sec, but come to think of it, home is the best place still. Thank you Phuket Thailand for having us. We'll come back for sure someday. There you go ladies & gentlemen of the flipside, this concludes my trip to Thailand. You guys should, many of my friends are going there. Next stop hopefully, BALI! Till the next blog post, take care & I will catch you on the flipside! Au Revoir.


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Sawadee Kaa!

Hey Hey Hey

Hey guys, I'm leaving home soon, leaving for PHUKET!!! Its today!!! Hahahha.... I'm gonna de-stress there, away from work, away from all the problems & stress. I need a break and apparently this is it. My blog & facebook will be inactive till my return on the 10th. So you guys take care and I will catch you on the flip side IF I come home? hahahaha... Au Revoir. Phuket, Thailand, Sawatdee Kaa!!!!!! BYE GUYS!


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Better Than PCD!

Off to work now! Bye Have a good week ahead! 5 Days to Phuket! I'm so gonna have fun!


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