I Got Nerve...

I know where I stand

I know who I am

I would never run away when life gets bad

it's Everything I see

Every part of me

Gonna get what I deserve

I Got Nerve

I have to say, after some talking with my friends, I felt there's more to life. And the whole sulking thing? Is not my thing. Ever since I returned to ITE last year, I felt like I was different, felt like I changed, but I really changed for the worst. I made others feel like shit n stuff. But thats in the past. Man, I've been thru alot this 2years. The past is past I say.

From now on, whatever happens to anyone, anybody or any being, I would not give a damn. Settle your own problems, I have my own shit to settle. Call me what you want, but come to think of it, Why help others, when your getting a bad name at the end of the day? Pointless. People can be so ungrateful.

I'm free as a bird. Life has gotten better for me. I need to focus on myself. Time to pick up the pieces of my broken life. So, Zubir's Helping Services is closed. Get that!

I'm still looking for the girl of my dreams. Where can she be? Hehe... Where are u my love??? Haha...

Ok Dudes & Dudets, I gotta go.. I need to rest... Tc...

Rock On

Zubir-O

Almost 4am... Random Post... Haiz...

Its almost 4am, people might be wondering why I'm up at this hour, SAHUR? Yes! Cant Sleep? Yes!

I have so much on my mind at this point, people see me smile, but they dunt know what lies within me... I too have problems, I mean dont we all, we're human arent we? I've been thinking these past few months, about how I was treated, how I behaved, how I changed...

It all began coz I needed some advice, and it turned out to be the end of my trust for my so called "FRIEND". I'm to blame too coz I didnt tell them upfront, instead people thought I was gossiping, whereas I needed some directions.

I used to always think frienship never ends, but I thought wrong... Did I make bad choices? I'm not shooting anyone here, so please dont get offended..

I feel so dumb now, I have nothing left.. But hey, I still have my old buddies to back me up rite guys? Thanks for the support n advice.

People find my quietness as arrogance at times, they think I choose not to talk to them, whereas I want too, but I need to rest myself at times. U cant be urself 24/7... Ur not human if ur "YOU" 24/7... I feel akward shooting my feelings here coz I've never done it b4 & I'm not seeking attention one bit... I dunno what to do next...

Im isolating myself for now, I need to think, and I bet many have seen changes in me... Not sure if its for the better or the worst... I will not say much from now onwards. This is the best for everyone... I'm so so lost... No one will ever understand my situation, why? Coz their not me...


I need time... please..

I really am at my breaking point... I fake a smile so they wont see...

Zubir-O

Strike 3! Ur Out!

Seriously dude, ur getting on my nerves... Your lucky this is the fasting month, the remark u gave me the other day wasnt necessary... I'm so F**cking pissed @ u rite now.. I thought by talking to u the other day, I could see a change in u, but ur proved to be a bigger ass.

What's with the gossiping Huh? You got sumthing to say, u come say it to my face, unless u dun have the balls to do so.... Dont hide behind others just coz u cant face the music... Try me summore, I'll let u have ur shot, but when the time comes, u'll regret ever meeting me... I can be nice, I can so be an ASSHOLE.

I know U'll be reading this post, and I'm glad you're reading it, coz this is my last warning to u... I told u, I'm not the only one who's waiting for an opportunity, I guess Idah was right when she said you will never change, and I agree with her 100%... Dun make everyone hate you because of what you say and your low-life actions.

I'm so in a bad mood these days.. Dun make things worst.

Boring Boring Good! Heee....

Was so damn bored the whole day... Woke up, showered, went online...

In the afternoon, started playing a childhood game... Hehe.. POKEMON! It's been a while since I played it, except this time it's a new version... And I'm addicted to it.. haha...

Well, I played it till evening, till I received a call from HANNAH, she wanted me to company her to CINELEISURE's ADIDAS Boutique.. So I quickly took a shower and stormed to meet her... By that time it was already 0745pm... Reached HEEREN @ 8.10pm... Waited for little Miss Always late... Haha... 25mins Nana... Was on the phone with Raikel untill Miss Lateness pushed me from the back... Haha...

Then we headed to CINE, bought the jacket she wanted since I dunno when, and took a cab home..

Went to eat at BLK 26 SINARAN SEAFOOD near our home... Yum2... Thanks Nana for the treat... (=

After dinner, went "LEPAKING" at blk 15... Bought drinks, transferred songs, talked bullshit... heee... After that here I am... Blogging...

That's all for today I guess... It's a cold evening... Better sleep soon... Nice weather to be snoring... ZZZzzzzzz....

Cath you on the flip side!

Song Recommendation for the day: Dreamer By Chris Brown

Well.. You Asked For It... It's Called "KARMA"

I dont usually diss on people like dis... But this is actual fact...

Today when I came to school, I heard u made fun of others, you thought it was funny, to you yes, but to others? I know I wasnt involved, but people have been complaining to me abt u... Im not a social service agent for pple to complain SHIT about u...

What I told you today, was just a mere warning... Next time dis happens, I'm not even gonna bother... Maybe you shud think properly, you ruined my life, you turned your back on me, yet I kept quiet and stayed true to myself... What I said today, was as serious as serious could get. Trust me, I was pissed at you..

You joked about me, you made fun of me, you joked about people who had problems, you donno ur limits, you dont knw ur place... If you really thought about others, you wouldnt have said such things... Now, you landed urself in hot soup... You got urself in there, you get urself out of there... I'm not gonna baby-sit you anymore.. This is what you get for making other's lives a living hell... U disappointed me...

Idah, what you told me today? I understand... Sathes & I will back you up any day... Take it easy... I know what you are going through... Dunt think about it too much...

I feel much better, I feel more human now... I know can change, I know I was better than yesterday.. I'm a NEW MAN!!! YAHOO!! Thanks to people like Hannah, Sathes, Idah & Zaneta for having my back when I needed support..

Anyways, I went to a "PASAR MALAM" with Hannah today... was fun... We were walking, we saw ZAM haha... We quickly avoided him... Man I think the both of us are like bloated...

Tomorrow, it will be a three way RB mini reunion... Me, Sathes & Hannah will be having lunch... I'm tired lah actually... Guess I'll take my leave now.. See U dudes & dudets... Catcha on the flip side!!!

Song Reccomendation of the day: Cookie Jar By GYM CLASS HEROES FT THE DREAM

Rock On! Playboy Bir!

Yeah Baby Yeah... Haha...

Alright... Sorry for not updating... I've been busy lately, so I'm sorry...

Yesterday, hmmm let's talk about yesterday... Yesterday was FUN!!!! Went to school in the morning with a SMILE, I dunno why... Haha..

Met Hannah & Zaneta @ CCK Mrt Station.. We headed for ORCHARD... It's been a long time since we saw each other... Haha.. We laughed our asses off in the train till we reached ORCHARD.

When we reached ORCHARD, we headed for FAR EAST first saunder around the place for awhile, bought some drinks n Nana had to smoke... Then we wanted to go to CATHAY CINELEISURE to eat... On the way to Cineleisure we passed by GIORDANO Lucky Plaza where I know my ex giordano buddy FIR is working... So when I reached there, shooked his hand, and he pointed me to someone...

When the I saw who it was, I shouted her name, she smile like she never smiled b4, it was ANIS, my bestest best friend... She was my supervisor & very2 good friend... We worked in 3 outlets together for 1 year plus... She told me something that I couldnt believe... You lied to me dude... I'm so disappointed in you... You tarnished my name...

After saying our goodbyes, we continued our way to CINELEISURE...

At cineleisure, we ate at this place called "BBQ CHICKEN" it was damn delicious... Recommended to all... The food was awesome, took some pics and went up coz Nana needed to smoke again haha.. I bumped into BENNY there, he was working at iShop and was on his break... And Benny dude, haha... I'm not a bloody "HONGSTER" ah... Their my friends... Haha...

After Nana smoked, we up to the movie area, and Nana wanted to buy tix to watch with Ckin & Am, but both couldnt make it, so Zaneta & I decided to watch with Nana...

We really were spoilt for choices, but we decided to watch "THE MUMMY 3: Tomb Of The Dragon Emperor".. It was an awesome movie, also recommended to all... After the movie ended, Zaneta hugged Nana & me... Thanks ah... haha...

Then after Nana, smoked "AGAIN" haha, we took some pics by the SINGAPORE POWER and then took 190 home... Btw Hannah, pics are ready for you...

Today was also a good day, went to buy somethings with Sathes... Hehe... Thanks Sathes, you followed the entire week... (=

That's all I have for you DUDES & DUDETS... I'll catch you on the flip side... Take care...

Song Reccomendation for the day: Like I Never Left By Whitney Houston & Akon

Rock On: PlaYboy BiR

FINALLY!!!!

Finally there's a smile on my face... Why? Haha... I finally got it after 3months of waiting... Tmr I will meet my crazeeeeyyyy BudDy Nurul Hannah haha... I'm gonna buy her birthday gift tmr... I need to get some things for myself too lah... Been a while since I last shop... Sweet2 serenity haha... Today went out to eat again with Sathe... Ate BAN MIAN... Cool ah Sathe the view? haha..

I'm Gonna go now... coz im really2 tired... Bye dudes n dudets...

Rock On

playboy Bir

Fun & Tiring...

Yesterday was our class' teambuilding day. I wanted to blog yesterday, but damn was I sleepy...


Anyways, when we reached ECP, we were asked to be broken up into groups, but our class didnt want to coz there were only a handful of us. So no bloody point lah...



So when we were in groups, they wanted us to select the leader, everyone pointed to me... Haha... I really was in a Trance when they wanted me to be leader... Haha...



So I just said ok. We were briefed on what to do. I was given a paper for our TREASURE HUNT. Our idea was to split up into 2 again, it was Jing Ye, Katek, Jane, Jun Kok & Xue Lin to the other side, and me, rashidah, mar, zura, hajar, wan, mawi to the other with a instructor.



We ran to furthest part of the treasure hunt. We were running like mad people haha... We were told to to go to this chalet to find out the pricing blah3...


After we finished with our tasks, while walking back to our pitstop, I found a HP on the ground, and I was busy on the phone, I passed the phone to the instructor. Damn, I'm so pissed that when I asked for it back, they took it back. I swear if they never did return the phone to the lost n found, they will get what's coming to them... Yes, we didnt know what you did with that phone, but god did. You'll get what's coming to you.


Imah I pity you, A "GENIUS" threw a waterbomb at her face till her specs came off, and her eyes turned red. The other thing that made me & the rest really2 pissed was that we were the only ones running like dogs. The other teams only made phone calls. Bloody hell, they used bikes, the said they need evidence. FUCK all you LYING INSTRUCTORS. Its not a matter of whether it was playing smart or not, but the fact we were pushed over our limits was what made us really pissed.


Everyone worked so hard and we got nothing out of it. We felt like fools, but that doesnt matter anymore, coz it's called TEAM FREAKING BUILDING, and that's what my class did. I'm so proud of RASHIDAH, MARLINA, REDUAN, RIDZUAN, HAJAR, YASIMAH, ZURA, JANE, DHIA, JING YE, JUN KOK & XUE LIN. We did an awesome job.


Btw, I injured my wrist n leg real bad. See picture below.... While trying to earn 5 Points. I scratched it while going round tree barks.


After the whole ordeal, we sat at some rocks waiting to see the sunset, but didnt get to see it coz we were running out of time... So we got changed and headed for SUNTEC to meet... Hahaha....


When we reached suntec, walked pass TCC, met KAMAL, my brother in law's brother. He was working... There was something that happened... I won't say... BLANK BLANK BLANk...


Finally we went to eat. All I wanted was a drink. My throat hurt really bad. Dinner was done, and we headed for?....... HOME!!!!!


When I got home... I took a shower.... And..... FELL ASLEEP... Haha..


My entry today is quite long lah... Hope u dont mind... Anyways, hope I find a new love... Any girls out there? hehehe... kidding... Take care dudes & dudets!

Rock On

PLaYboy Bir

Song reccomendation of the day: Am I Dreaming- Kat DeLuna Feat Akon